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Erin Leigh | WitchySelfHealer's avatar

I had such a breakdown this morning over this. Again. I’m 38, white, blue eyes, a beautiful son, & I’m so grateful for so much, but I’m also so driven & feel blocked in every direction. I have no idea how to make anything of my life most days. I’m late in life queer, autistic, & creative, & it feels like I figured it all out too late. I’m also no contact with half or more of my family. I just started making my own music, but the joy & hope that brought me seems suddenly all so silly. My small crystal & crystal jewelry business I had to take a year off from and was just trying to revitalize feels silly. I walk dogs because it’s all I’ve been able to do consistently with CPTSD & autoimmune diseases popping up. It the moments that I feel more connected & less defeated, I know I’ve already accomplished so much & that just by continuing to try & do what lights me up & sharing that with others I’m doing a ton. I wish I had more answers, & I wish we had a fair shot at the lives we deserve. Sparkle as bright as you can in resistance. That’s all I got. And when you can’t be sweet to yourself till you can again. 💖🫶✨

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Frederic Poag's avatar

I found hope within myself. Even with the trauma, the failures, the madness, all of it.

That this place in history isn't unique. It's kind of what's always been in ebbs and flows. That while there are dark times there's light times too.

The world turns. There's good to be found in it. There's things worth striving for.

In the death camps Viktor Frankl found that Love was the highest value people can strive for. He got through thinking about seeing his wife again.

Life becomes almost an act of resistance. A struggle to hang onto something good within you. To fight for it.

I was at my lowest point a couple of years ago. Probably two steps away from checking out for good. I stared over that edge and stepped back from it with some help.

In these times Max Ehrmann's "Desiderata" brings me comfort. I hope it might for you too.

Keep going.

https://www.desiderata.com/desiderata.html

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